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Each year, one thing I put on my "To Do" list is to be braver.  If you would meet the me from 10 years ago and have her stand next to me, I think you'd see she was horribly shy and timid.  She would never dream of sending out any of her stories or talking to new people or *gasp* starting a blog to talk to people she didn't even know.  I'm pretty proud of how far I've come and how I've dealt with setbacks along my journey.  Each day I try so hard to be the girl I want to be and live the life I want to live. 

Yesterday and today, I did some pretty brave things.  I participated in Neil Gaiman's #KeepMoving and tweeted some pretty personal things.  Things I think I've been trying really hard not to express.  One thing, I miss my dad quite a lot and cry more often than you can imagine.  I've been filling my last 4 months or so of my life with so much activity that I don't really have time to dwell and grieve.  But I'm getting tired and worn-out.  I finally can admit that and I'm okay with it.  Now I will be taking more time to relax and enjoy life, savor the happy and sad times, and just be me again. 

You can read about this amazing project here.

So, now I'm sitting here in a dark room (damn you, motion-sensor lights!) and feeling afraid to hit the publish button, but I'm being braver.  So here...I...go...
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